No, I did not.

Oschool Recital 2009.
Results are out. And yes, Goh Yan Ying did not make it through.
(laugh for all I care)

K, I'm seriously serious about feeling so sad and everything. 
And, I am really really very sad.
Though I know it myself that I can't make it through the auditions this year.
 And kept repeating to
myself not to be sad and not to cry. 
But, somehow when I scroll down that list and did not see my
name, I feel very very out. 
No, not out is very REJECTED. Super rejected.
And, now I know how's Shermaine is feeling nao.
I super know that feeling. 
Seeing practically EVERYONE who went with me got in
EXCEPT for me. I felt so dumb and stupid.
Such simple choreo also can't catch.
HOW  SMART  CAN  I  BE.?
I don't even feel like joining anything anymore.
I suddenly don't dare to step out of my safety
zone. Like seriously I don't.
Why am I even so stupid to go join the audition this year?
W-H-Y (?)
If, I did not go for the auditions, 
I need not go through any of this torment. 
And, now with this
feeling stucked in my head,
 I've to go through it with my fucking fucked up STUDIO PROJECT.
How lucky can
Goh Yan Ying be in year 2009. Just tell me.
I seriously think that I'll FAIL STUDIO PROJECT, FAIL
EVERY SINGLE MODULE AND RETAIN A-G-A-I-N.
History will then repeat itself. I've a phobia
of failing. And, seriously I do. 
I've not been crying when I'm sad.
I've been suppressing all my tears and sadness.
Idk how to let it out and when to.
It's like, there'll never be a good time to let my emotions out. 
NEVER.
AND, sorry I AM VERY VERY VERY
e m o t i o n a l l y
unstable nao.

V-E-R-Y.

P.S: Fuckmylife.
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我的快樂,會回來的

Yes, it's so true.

Yes, it's so true.

我的快樂,會回來的

K, I know imma bit slow and stuff. But, this show is super touching, romantic and stuff. <:
And, I once believe in this kind of fairytale love, and believe that I would find one. But, I don’t really believe in it nao. :/
Don’t ask me why, because idk too.
Seriously, I think that girls with this kind of guys and this kind of romance is very lucky. And yep, not many girls will have this fortune. (: So, I must say girls, if you have a chance to have this kind of romance, treasure it.

Happy Teachers’ Day

BHS.

BHS.

Happy Teachers' Day

Howdy people!. <: Went to school around 9am to pass up our panels. And my panel is super duper cui compared to the rest. :/ Ohwell. Left school around 11am to head down to Bhss. Saw lots of junior. All step on ahbengs. -.-
K, and the performance there was damn cui please! I swear, they kept on singing stupid songs lah. Like omg (!)
Saw quite a few teachers, talked to them and stuffs. Ate Mee Soto, loved it. & something drastic happened to my baby lappy. It went crazy!. ):
So, I’ve got to go Wheelock place to get it fixed. Rofl! <:
Lucky it’s something minor. If not I die sial. Can really seriously cry out loud.
K, and imma very good girl today ay!. I’m like home nao. Whoooo.

kbyethx.

Bonding Session

Sydc Juniors
Sydc Juniors
Sydc's movie outing. <:
The Proposal.

The Proposal

The Proposal

It’s quite a nice show actually. <: Quite interesting. I’ll rate it 3/5 stars.
It’s a comedy romance. It’s exceptionally funny if you sit beside Eugene Koh.
K, suppose to meet the crew @ harbourfornt 3pm. And, I reached there like around 4.30pm <:
It was darn embarrassing please! -.- I walked all the way to old airport road bus stop to bus down to Vivo. And as I was unsure of the venue, I took out my phone to double check. I opened the wrong text and thought that it was at Tampines. So I crossed back to the other side of the road again. But, I was like thinking to myself cannot be. So, I checked again. & I realise I read the wrong message. -.- & Therefore I missed two buses. Argh. I called Keith by accident too. :/ How blur I can get?.
And, I flag down the wrong bus. So embarrassing.! *BLUSH*

K, went to eat Kim Gary. I did not eat thou. :/ Was not very hungry. So I just ordered Mango plus Coconut milk Smoothie I guess. Rofl! It was not bad. (: Camwhored with Nikkie’s camera! <: The lighting there damn nice please. Argh! Loved it. So, took pictures with practially everyone. Except for Jinwen, Bao-ge and lester.
We occupied like 2 rows! HAH. & we’re like having a mini picnic inside the theatre. ROFLMAO! :D
Was fun watching movie with them luh. Laughed my ass off. After movie, we went up to the sky garden to slack/cam-whore. HAHA. Nikkie’s camera is really damn dope! love it ttm. The colour can fade damn nice lah!.
K, then around 10 I went home with Winxy. <:

And, I seriously have no clue on what to do manxz. -.-
Damn jialat please!. Rawr. NMHRGK! ):
Wish me luck people.! Bye.

P.S: Sorry, I don’t have full sydc photo!.

Happy Birthday

My birthday cake. <:

My birthday cake. <:

Birthday girl, me! :D

Birthday girl, me! :D

My 1st Sexy Diamond! <:

My 1st Sexy Diamond! <:

Cake again. Chocolate Obsession.

Cake again. Chocolate Obsession.
Photo 3089Happy birthday to me. <:
Legal 18.

It’s like super old already please. Thou I’m able to watch m18, and get into the club. But, still I envy my babies.
Xuan, Jam & Zen. >:
But nevertheless, I really enjoyed my day today. Seriously!. I didn’t expect it. I was darn super shock when they sang birthday song for me when I reach Galleria. Thou the cake cui already but yep, I still love it as much. Coco Exotic, my favourite!. <3
Congrats all those who made it into Semis. & Yep, was another dope performance by all of them <:
Congrats: Joey, Jeremy, Daniel, Brendan.(Open soloist)
Triple T, COA, Basic five, Groov-E, RJR, Flair nation. (Group category)
DOPE PERFORMANCE.

I’ve got something to say to my friends.

Ong Hui Xuan; Ongong Baby:
Xuan darling, thou you’re 17, but you seems like my older sister. Always there for me when I’m sad, accompany me when I’m in studio. And, giving me advice when I needed them. You’re really seriously a good/best/superb friend/baby/sister of jovelle. <:
I’ve never regretted knowing you. Instead, I really felt v lucky to have you as my closest friend in Fb. (: And I’m seriously very thankful for my birthday surprise! I really v shock. And, thanks for remembering my favourite cake. And my sexy diamond present. I seriously love it!. TO THE MAX. <:
My first ever sexy diamond. I’ll make sure you have a rocking 18th birthday too dear. Love you. XOXO.

Lee Zhen Xin; Sotong Brother:
Ay brother!. <: Remember I kept calling you sotong. HAH. (: And, yep. Thanks for my birthday surprise my present too. <:
Love it. Remember last time we very close. But, now not as close. :/ But it’s okay lah!. <: Just need to communicate more. HOHO.
Really thanks for everything. Loves! Best brother I have in FB. HOHO. And, thanks for being there for me when i’m sad and yep. There to cheer me up and stuffs. The lame jokes and ya haha :D Aiya, Love you la!.

Jamie Gan Zi Qian; Gangan Baby; Twinny:
Jamie twin! I love you alot and you know it. <:
thanks for my surprise today and my present and card. I love it. :D
Thanks for being there for me and stuffs, and we’ve yet to choreograph any steps yet. ): I’ll be there for you no matter what too!. Thanks for my surprised birthday and celebration of my birthday! HEE. <:
You’re same as Xuan, like my older sis. ^^  Love you lah!. XOXO, mwah.

I’ll continue tmrw!. (Shermaine Kim, Jaclyn Chia, Tiffany Jean, Thomas, And those who are here with me today!)

Devastated

fml

fml

My 18th birthday is tomorrow. The project I’ve been working on for 2 weeks is rejected again by Mr. Andrew. And, I’ve got to think of fresh new, good idea by monday. And, I’ve got no one to celebrate my birthday too.
I’ve really got no idea on how and what to do for my studio project. Everyone of my friends/classmates has clear their studio project except for me. Seriously speaking, I hate projects hate drawing. Guess I’m really not meant to be a designer. And seriously idk what can I or should I do. I don’t see any future in me actually. I seriously don’t know what to do for my project anymore. Nao I know why my another coursemate cried. Because I’m feeling how she feel too. :/ I don’t dare to cry out in class. And I’ve got to hold my tears till I reach home after dance. How pathetic can that be. And I guess I’ll be crying tomorrow too. My 18th birthday, how grand, how fun. WOW. *Roll eyes*

No one cares anyway.