So near yet so far.

Mixed feelings.
I don’t want to think about anything. But my heart doesn’t allow me to.
Seeing you stress, yet can’t help. I’ll feel stress and sad too.
Now that you’re happy, but knowing that it’s not because of me, my heart aches.
fml, idk what the hell am I doing/feeling/thinking.

Is there anyone can understand this feeling? I doubt.